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This time last week we were on holiday in the Lake District. 

We stayed in the white cottage in the photo – Darling How. It was great, as always. Returning to the same place each year is special for me – every year I remember the year before, and i love building memories in the same place each year. Amelia remembered last year too, and knew exactly what she wanted to do with her week. She wanted to build a bridge, play hide and seek in the cottage and go in the hot tub. 

As Easter was earlier this year, the weather wasn’t as sunny as last year. We had a few windy, rainy days, but we still got out and about every day. It got nicer toward the end of the week too.  The girls both had Wellies (so did I!) and they loved jumping in puddles – Amelia was ‘making hot chocolate’ in the puddles, and Rosie just thought she was peppa pig. They walked in the streams, we found lots of frogspawn, and we went to Amelia’s favourite bridge every single day (she didn’t want to explore anywhere else!) and threw stones, made bridges, walked in the stream and just played. 

My favourite things about this year were:

– being at the bridge – watching the girls just play without it having to cost anything or involve anything more than water, stones, sticks and imagination was great. It’s what they need and made it special.

– Fairyland. There’s a walk just outside the cottage which gets you direct to ‘fairly land’ where the fairies live. Amelia got a gift from them (a fairy doll) and she was so happy and excited and I just loved her innocence and belief in magic. She talked about it non stop for the rest of the day:

Playing at being a witch and chasing the girls round the cottage with Rosie shouting ‘try n get me’ and hiding from each other. 

Watching the kids in the hot tub – they both loved it. Although I have to admit that they are fearless and this panicked me a bit! 

– going for a walk in the evening with Lydia -the sun was shining and it was lovely. And I’d had a bit of wine and found a few silly things really, really funny lol. 

– going in the hot tub when the stars were out.

– having time to read my book, and not having to rush to get things done or be anywhere, or to have loads of house tasks to do. 

– spending tIme with my family – my nana was poorly and in hospital until 2 days before we left so having her there was special too, and the holiday wouldn’t have been the same without her there. 

I could go on but I won’t. Amelia said it was the best holiday ever, and Rosie didn’t say anything but I know she had the best time. I loved it, and just wish we could have stayed even longer as it went by so fast! 

I love holidays – making memories without distractions. Now I just have to wait for the next one! 




Amelia was 6 on Tuesday. I kept thinking about it all day – the day 6 whole years ago when she was born. The newness of the experience, the strangeness of it. The pain, that you know is coming but can never prepare for. The amazement of holding my baby in my arms for the first time. The relief at her being healthy. The relief of the pain ending. I said to Craig when we were alone (the first thing I said to him!) that I am never going through it again. I did, of course, but at the time I didn’t even know how I had got through it.

The first 6 days were a bubble. We spent them in the maternity home, and it was like being there protected us from reality. I was desperate to leave, and yet needed the safety and security of having people there to advice, help and reassure. Like the night I spent up with Amelia all night, and the nurse popped in and said I was doing a fantastic job. 

I know it’s all a cliche, but I don’t know how time has moved so fast. 6 years ago I had a tiny baby. Now I have a little girl. A girl who is independent, stubborn, clever. Who talks about the sun being made of gas, and the rings of Saturn being made of ice and rock (she loves planets). A girl who plays barbi’s, but gets ‘nervous’ if we are watching her play – she likes to play them on her own. A girl who will argue forever when she thinks she is right, who takes everything literally. Who got 10/10 today in her spelling test. A girl who is unique, and wonderful.

Amelia said she had the ‘best birthday ever.’ She was at school, so I took a cake in and got her a badge. We had a party tea with family round. They played pass the parcel and musical statues. Her nana boon made a beautiful cake. Amelia loved being at the centre of attention (as always!) and loved her presents. She especially loves her new barbi dolls, she has them with her most of the time. 

It was a busy day. But a day with family, with the people who love Amelia the most, as much as me and Craig do. I love that girl so much. It is so hard to believe that the baby i first held is the little girl of now. It’s almost as though the girl has sneaked up on me without me realising – I want to remember every second and yet still I forget sometimes. I forget moments I treasured at thape time. 

Amelia, i know I tell you every day. But I am so proud of who you are. I love you now and I will forever. I don’t always get things right – in fact, it feels like with you I always get it wrong – you are such a complex little girl at times and I struggle to find the right way to parent you. But I love your confidence, te way you will stand up for what you believe and won’t just go with the crowd. They are qualities that will help you in your future.

I love you sweetheart. Xxx

Less technology time…

Things have changed a little in our house lately.

We’ve always used the iPad daily – I check my emails and am on and off it throughout the day. But then the other day i started noticing how my 4 year old was getting a little bit obsessed with it herself. It has Netflix, and she likes YouTube episodes of pepper pig. It has a few games for her, and music. A little bit I don’t mind, but I put it away the other day, and every few minutes she started looking for it, or asking where the iPad was. It worried me a bit – I think that technology is great for kids in lots of ways – we’ve looked up songs about planets, letters and numbers for example. But, i think that we’ve overused it lately – it’s been easier for me while I’m sorting my baby out, and it’s kind of become a habit.

So I thought about it, and made a new rule. No iPad in the day. That’s for me and for my daughter. I can’t tell her she can’t use it if I use it through the day, that doesn’t feel fair to me. There are exceptions – if we are learning something specific that the iPad will help with, we can get it out. And I’ve agreed to have some ‘iPad time’ for my daughter each day – probably around 4ish for half an hour so I can start getting tea ready. But – for both of us we need to change our habits, and use our imaginations, have more fun.

It’s working too. It’s felt strange, but it’s meant we have had to find our own entertainment. It’s only been 3 days, but already we’ve played more.

The other day we got out the colinder, and the sieve, pretended they were our space helmets (and Rosie had a bowl!) – the rug was the space rocket, and we went into space. We explored the moon, saw some planets and had lots of fun. And this morning we pretended the room was a park – we pretended to go on the seesaw, the chair was a slide, and we had a picnic of grapes while we were there.

We’ve read lots of books, we’ve drawn and painted more pictures, and we’ve just done more.

It’s difficult for me – I have to think more carefully of ways to entertain my children more imaginatively, and especially in the afternoon this can be difficult. But it’s worth it. I also miss checking any new blog posts, checking twitter and Instagram. I can’t do these things now, but they wait. Can save it all up and do this in the evenings when my girls are asleep. That’s my ‘iPad time.’ It probably means I have less time to blog, and less time to comment on other blogs etc. but sometimes, something has to give, and for me this is one of those things.

My daughter is at her granddads right now, and so I feel that it’s okay to write this post and have a bit of quiet time. But generally, my new general rule will be that if she can’t go on it, I won’t go on it either. I’m putting it out of sight – if we can’t see it then hopefully we will stop thinking about it so much!

In other news, we’ve had a ‘theme’ over half term of the moon, planets and sun. Amelia has learnt loads – I will post all about it next time I get chance. We’ve painted the moon in a night sky, painted a rocket using tissue paper and glitter to decorate it, we’ve read stories, pretended to be astronauts and we have looked up songs about planets on YouTube (these have really helped Amelia to relate to them.) it’s been a lot of fun, and we have both learnt quite a lot this week.